& my world will be coloured.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

okay.i thought about it and figured tat perhaps my kpoish characteristics might hurt someone else feelings.but,its becoz i am curious in almost everything when people don include me.and when i ask them they will find me annoying.well,but i still feel tat gossiping really reallly is more annoying.'u know tat somebody is gossiping about u but must try to ignore it which is quite hard and it becomes worse when the people spreads it and suddenly u become a loner except if u hav a vry close fren.well,the feelings tat u encounter is most probably hatred,anger ,sadness and sometimes frustrated/confused.i know these coz i am goin through it now.in bball.those f***ing bitches jus say bad things about me.well,first,cos i am annoying.second,i am lousy in bball.and to think i tried to help and concern them in many ways.this is all i get from them.i hate them but i cant express it out.i lousy in bball cos before i join the cca,i like only touch/play bball for only 2 times!and wads more,i got into tat cca unwillingly.those people are heartless.i need time to improve one okay....think wad,i super woman ar.si bei angry one ley.aso coz me to be annoyed so still the same rite?ANNOYING.but mine doesnt hurt peeps feelings so can can .i dunno y so many people like u all....i jus wonder....

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 4:22 PM

Saturday, June 28, 2008

i hate the f***ing training yesterday lor.i feel so miserable now.......i feel tat all bballers hate me except for some...i know i lousy lah but at least i not like them who keep gossiping wad.they say tat i vry kpo.ya lah i kpo so?their gossipin will make other people sad but mine doesnt rite?i lend them my things when they need it,i try to be nice to them but.....they still treat me like tat.i try not to hate them.i hate this school.i really hate tis school.....

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 10:08 AM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

my bro funny sia.he smtimes good to me smtimes bad to me.its so.....

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:42 PM

craving for ice cream now.chocolate.cake .all those goodies!

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:42 PM

haha....after much beggin,at last i can on the com.then rite,dunno y my bro change his attitude to me.sudenly so nice =)luvin it!then they won!THE BBALL TEAM WON!!!!!YEY!waitin for another match.must jia you hor those in school team!jia you all the way!

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:24 PM

now in school.today got match again.tis time wiv bedok view.audrey din come so dunno who take place lor.hope is angeline cos she vry angry when she din go in the team.she try vry hard lor.then lauren say (now she captain) tat she wan to change angeline's attitude.siao ar!then hor,becoz of one match,a lot of peeps changed.especially those in school team.then training yesterday ilina cry.sad lah she.dunno y people dislike her but i tink she okay lah.its tat other people had not feel before the feeling when no one talk to u.like loner like tat.then so frustrated sad emo all tat.wasai.......poor gal lah.

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 8:58 AM

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

no time so don say too much.don write bout the trip or wad. jus write bout today.got match wiv ngee ann.actually i dunno how to go.none of the sec 1s not in the skool team one goin,only me.so sad =(but charlene's fren brought me near anglican then gave instructions then i know how to go liao.goin to climb up the vry vry long steps hor,saw jocelyn.talk little while then see zhi tao comin down the stairs.say hi.then he zao liao.then jocelyn bring me go bball court.halfway the stairs see yiying,then she go wiv us.then 3 smthing they go.leaving me alone.so bad!then i about 4 go coz need to go clinic.until now still dunno the score but know tat we lose liao.sad sad sad.surely kena severe punishment one

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:19 PM

Sunday, June 22, 2008

scared forget to tell so say now.on wednesday,the day before goin to m'sia,well.went to tm and both bro and me bought 2 pair of shoes.first time sia.then when we go holiday we act as if we are rich.but obviously we are not.i hate not being rich.have to keep conserving when the others of my family don hav to.but went to jocelyn blog and found out tat she worse than me =(

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:15 PM

at last!went holiday.go colmar tropicale then go genting.only 2 of us play at genting.me and my bro.now vry lazy to type so maybe tmr or other days.i dread goin to school lar....aiyo...then yesterday 11 + reach home.sleep until 10+.then i read msg tat todae got self training at 10.30 .i no time to get ready so nvr go lor.tired aso...bye bye

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 2:49 PM

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

yesterday i really hitted my bro.well,i locked the com.er....actually laptop.okay,continueing.well,i locked the laptop and hid the charger.i din use aso lor.then he say i did all those.duh.but i cannot admit wad.tats y....and then the fighting began.he hit me first lor.then i let him hit until unbearable liao then i hit him back.i go take .his reaction ar,i see already want to laugh.never had he been scared of me before until tat moment.....hehe.....i was enjoying this lah.
today.
had training lah.same old thing.but the male jiao lian made us do something tat we don like.then suffer for like 1hour+.then mrs tay announce those selected for the team then dismiss.then walk wiv nima to 7 eleven.buy mashed potato for 1.20.worth it.
oh yeah and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIMA!!!!!
er....her b'day was yesterday but coz din on the com yesterday so.......
bye

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:25 PM

Monday, June 16, 2008

did not hav time to type the more relevant details for the sat and sun and today.
SAT>arrived at 11+.nth else more to write.
SUN and MON>aso nth to say but reached home about 4.30+.then sleep then go training.then nth liao lor.

nowadays holiday so i sleep damn lot lar.sleepy now but the computer ....u know.then not sure if goin holiday or not.last week liao.holiday is not like holiday this year coz every week need to go training.haiz.....tis holiday seems so short this year.every time i kept telling myself to study hard durin the holidays but din even do hw.*sigh*i don even tink i can study durin the comin school term.sad sad lah.

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:34 PM

wanna change add to>coldsweetness.blogspot.com

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:43 PM

went to m'sia AGAIN.after goin to jasmine's house and tm.then today got training.male coach come only.vry scary at first but slowly not so scary.we thought training was goin to be hard.well,it actually would be difficult.lucky got a group of teachers come and chat wiv him so good lor.............then is like,I HATE MY BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!the moment i went into the house,into my room,he,that asshole,made me angry.now tat asshole is makin my typing inconvenient.ungrateful person!i skipped my lunch to rush home for him to eat sia.idiot.i am screaming at him and typing now.fuming mad.he threatens me now tat he is goin to tell my mum tat i played the com.not scared coz he aso got play.watsmore,he is the one playin and i am bloggin.he-PLAYING.NOT ME.throat vry sore now.i already pushed him out of the room and locked the door.damn noisy outside.hav to let him in so bye.

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:27 PM

Friday, June 13, 2008

1) What would your dream wedding be like?
Ans:I dunno...anyway.i DON wanna wed!

2) State a date that is really important to you.
Ans:2/08/1995(my b'day dude!any presents???)

3) What is your favourite colour?
Ans:yellow?

4) Do you have a pet?
Ans:Nope.but i would like to have one......

5) Do you prefer to be single or taken?
Ans:SINGLE =)

6) Do you like blogging?
Ans:duh!

7) Who is/are your closest friend(s) in your present class?
Ans:i dunno ley...vry confused sia...

8) Describe your form teacher.
Ans:ms chia?well,she has lots of holes on her face.she is naggy,unreasonable but she apologizes to us when she feels tat she could.damn fiere.we call her old hag at first but changed to ah chia.cant type finish one lah

9) State 2 or 3 words that are meaningful to you.
Ans:friendship.family.god

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:59 PM

today's training wasnt hard.but it was quite 'emotional'.no crying lah.jus sad sad face.=( lol.then buy bubble tea then go home.then bloggin.later do father's day present.haizz......wanna sleep but the computer is toooo attractive.so too bad lor.tmr goin to join chai ying jasmine kelly etc.YAY!

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:10 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

2nd post todae.jus ate lunch.did not hav enough money to pay the person.then aunts family came.lucky sia.......but the owner,an auntie,say nvr min coz only 60 cent.(we r her regular customer tats y..)then paisei paiseh say cannot lah.so ask bro if he got money.he say got one dollar.i scold him again say y he know already don wan to giv.tat boy!but the auntie still don wan sono choice lor,so thank you then zao liao.i say "scold him again" coz my bro made me angry just before we left the house and when we goin to reach our destination-the kopitiam.byebye liao coz nth to say

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:13 PM

i jus cant find the pics tat i took in m'sia when we played wiv the pics.......

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 12:56 PM

i HATE my cousin!!!!!!!!he is NOW makin my brother more naughtier.more rude.he is a BASTARD!same goes to his whole family except his younger bro.i HATE his family!now even my bro 'obeys' him and ignores me.my cousin is so ARROGANT!TAT BASTARD!i MUST teach him a lesson.just he wait.......................

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 12:18 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

amongst the 3 matches,this,was the best!though we lost.18-32

today we had the a match wiv dunmun/dunman(however i spell lah).actually match at school but coz it started raining heavily.kanasai lah!we scraped the damn floor for like so long and then it started raining again.so we went to fengshan cc play match.after tat,coz we lost mah so coach tell us to run 140 rounds around the court.after runnin 30 rounds,rest,then run again.but coach was not angry.she was sastified.perhaps?then i was like so angry at the other peeps lor.i over ran them for like so many times but they finish before me ley.so mad lah!eveline aso.she say they cheat.duh.who doesnt know they cheated.but not all lah.only 'bout 4 peeps(including me and eveline)ran 30 rounds.then lorencia walked so need to add xtra round.i was like so surprised and elated at the same time coz its like the first time i ran wivout stopping/walkin and did not pant.shiok ar!then later after 90 rounds,coach tell us to do push ups.30 times.5 set.okay lah.we got used to it so nvr mind.then we talked/discussed during the 'break time'(we rested after 30 times)not coz we r tired because later scared people want to go home mah.then scared no time to discuss.finished liao actually can go home but we still stayed to discuss. !!!then me ,shenan,lorencia,dan ni and nima go buy bubble tea.nima and dan ni walked wiv us but they go to the coffee shop jus beside the bubble tea shop to hav lunch.lorencia didnt buy.then 3 of us walk to the coffee shop.said bye to shenan and lorencia then go join nima they all.ate liao then they say wanna buy bubble tea. !!! then follow.then cannot resist to buy another buble tea coz all of them buy.i aso want to hav it aso...tats y.then go home then like tat lor.but got giv my bro half of the bubble tea.too full liao..then here bloggin lor

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:39 PM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

1.Do you like your present school?
>average lor.
2.What do you want the most now?
>I want world peace, and no global warming .
3.What type of ice-cream do you want to be?
>erm.....chocolate chip?
4.Do you hate your friends sometimes?
>yes.sometimes.but not my best frens of course!
5.Are you afraid of death?
>kinda.
6.What is your goal this year?
>to at least be better in bball?
7.Do you believe in love at first sight?
>Nope.
8.Do you believe in eternity love?
>er...no.
9.Have you ever done something for a crush or boyfriend/girlfriend?
>c'mon lah!i don even hav a crush.and i don suppose i will even hav 1.(can u stop askin these stupid qns???)
10.What do you enjoy doing the most?
>hanging out wiv frens/family .duh
11.Have you done anything for your admirer?
>told ja to stop askin these kind of qns........and if i hav,i wont do it
12.Do you like your CCA?
>don tink so......
13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
>duh.i wot be living if i hav no frens.i would be dead already.
14.Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with?
>how do i know?myself?
15.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
>My family.
16.Do you find life meaningless?
>Yeah
17.What do you live for?
>My family. erm....and frens
18.Who do you talk to most in school?
>almost all of the peeps i meet?.
19.Who is the last person/people you've talked to on msn?
>Hmm... swee lee.
20.What material thing do you want most now?
>A laptop?

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:07 PM

Monday, June 9, 2008

had to copy 2 sutras before i can use the com.wasai!hand pain sia!now my bro is singing"weimin is a stupid pig"i agree tat i am stupid lah

saturday:reached m'sia about 8+ or 9+?then we all play the thing.dunoo wad it is.but is a kind of bubble where we blow onto a stick where the tip of the stick got something one.dunno how to describe it lah but i post the pics lor.nxt time lah coz now cant find.

sunday:vry borin lah.but eat a lot lor.then go back singapore vry late reach like about 3+am.

monday:had trainin.walked wiv nima again.toae she damn early.then training is okay today.after training need to do push ups etc.coz kena punishment one.then jarene is askin for us to say who has a sucky attitude today.everyone must say and say the reason.i actually got no one to say but coz its a must so.....i said cally.reason:i forgot.audrey said me.reason:coz i lazy to change cca and already stay here .then jarene say:"ya.i aso don like her coz of this."

she ask:u know i hate u rite?

i nodded and smiled.sibei embarrasing.then after tat nima go wiv me to tell jarene the 'truth'.she is like."then u better show me u want to stay in the team"

then i thought lah.if i want to stay or don stay in bball is none of her buisness rite?y must she control?its my choice wad!she hav no rights to interfere.then actually when she ask that who hav the suckiest attitude rite,i wanted to say her name.reason:can she change her attitude of talkin to me or not!is like so pekchek lor.NOT tat i hate her lah.but.....really don like her to be like tat wad.is none of her buisness and i didnt even show her sucky attitude,rude faces etc.y the heck must she do tis to me?????i jus cant understand........i aso nvr bear grudges or wat to anyone in the bball team.BUT Y?Y?Y?
today:
went to polyclinic today.go there to check my hand.coz of the damn allergy of mine.go there for like 4 hours+?coz keep waiting mah.haiz...then tmr got match.vry tired sia................

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 8:44 PM

Saturday, June 7, 2008

changed blogskin.suits my taste.maybe not urs but heck care coz its my blog and i can do watever i wan to it.nah,jus kiddin lah but really hope ya all like it.

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 12:46 PM

still in mums work place.3rd post liao.anywaez,who wants me to link them pls tell me kay?i wanna do smthing.so borin...

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 11:21 AM

i am thinking of whether to become a christian or remain as a buddhist.wad do u all tink.....

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 11:00 AM

now in mums workplace.gotta help her pack food.haizz.....hate it!later need to go m'sia again....

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:03 AM

Friday, June 6, 2008

i feel so hurt.........how can she say tat?i always thought that she doesnt really like to hurt people's feeling.....senior somemore.......not only did she hurt my feeling,(which doesnt really matter),she embarrased me.jus when the sec 2s are goin to accept me,talk to me.and....she jus embarrased me in front of the basketball team.now wad r they gonna think 'bout me?i felt too sad and cried lah.dunno y am i suddenly so weak.i don cry last time when i encounter this type of matter.well,today's training wasn't tough.only for some peeps who need to play but the rest jus sit outside.poor eveline.the whole activity rite,she was sittin outside same as me.i can see tat she is quite sad coz coach didnt call her up to play throughout the whole thing.coach was angry wiv us though.for our efforts, attitude and all.then amanda told us to sit in circle and talk about the problems.she cried lah poor gal.then jarene,phyllis etc said something too.jarene asked some of us if we wanna be in the team.including me.before i can reply,she said (about like tat lah)'u too lazy to change cca rite?don wanna be in the school team rite?then u can go.i aso don tink coach will want u to be in the team.i aso.i don welcome u'.then i,was too shocked to reply her properly .so i forced a smile and nodded.i don want to cry in front of others so i beared.lucky got nima lor.she comforted me when i cried and said something else more.LUV YA NIMA!but i don hate jarene.its my fault tat i didnt tell her properly.must clarify wiv her.nima said she was goin to help me. but last time i really don like bball.now like.and coach already asked a lot of times who don like bball.i didnt raise my hand wad......i wanna hav courage ....dun ask y coz its a personal thingsy and i feel tat i should need it.
anyway,went to 138 bball court wiv kelly and alicia.xin ting cant come(now is her turn cannot come.haizz......)still dunno when can go escape wiv them...bye

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:22 PM

Thursday, June 5, 2008

i still dunno wad time i've gotta meet jocelyn they all.then is like for the 1st time tis year,i stayed up till 2+ to read a book.now ar,when u giv me a book to read,i still an read as well as before.but,when u tell me to do jus a page of hw,i will not do it oz i dunno y but i dun have the brain to think.and.now my pri4 bro is really gettin out of hand.........

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 10:43 AM

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

had match wiv ngee ann.as we expected,their team sibei strong.we lost lah.no doubt.then talk wiv carlene for bout 45 min?not sure lah.then i kept sayin 'bout my 2 colour skin.dunno y but i like to say 'bout this.then tmr goin yo play bball wiv jocelyn at 138.until now still dunno wad time.........

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 2:31 PM

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

i am weird.i forgot to print my result slip tat i need to giv tmr to coach.so,i told my mom to go bedok inter wiv me.she told my dad to drive there coz we lazy to walk.siao lah.actually can go myself one but ended up wiv both my parents goin wiv me to print 1 piece of paper.retarded.my bro is whining now coz i use the com first.sigh.............then dunno whether if i can join chai ying and jasmine they all or not.haven ask mom yet.a mysterious feeling made me not brave enough to ask them.then might be goin to escape wiv my 4 'sistaz'scared to tell aso.....when the hell am i goin to be free??????

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 9:03 PM

Monday, June 2, 2008

got very annoyed today.y?when i was napping(very tired sia....)my bro and my mom kept shouting at each other.mom shouting at my bro to do his work.bro shouting to mum tat he did his work already.so noisy!then my bro dragged me in and i covered both my ears.until i cannot bear.i shouted lor.but my mom nvr hit me.she hit my bro he cry lor.whenever someone gets beaten and cry,i always wish that i could be the one who is beaten coz i don like to hear people cry.retarded lah me.then peace came.eat dinner already,father came home.war began again.its like sooooooooo f***ing annoying lor.then must copy a few chinese passages before i can on com.my bro used 1st then i take over.dunno y but i feel that my bro is getting rude to my parents now and if i were to blame someone,i will blame my cousin:U IDIOT!TEACH MY BRO BECOME LIKE THAT! SO WAD IF U ELDER THAN HIM TWO YEARS!I BIGGER THAN U LEY!SO WAD IF U ARE A BOY,I AM STILL BIGGER THAN U WAD!TEACH MY BRO BECOME SO NAUGHTY SO RUDE!I GET HURT WHENEVER HE ARGUES WIV MY MOM !HE BUYS TOYS WIVOUT PARENTS PERMISSION AND ITS ALL BECOZ OF U!uU TAUGHT HIM ALL THESE!!!!!MAKE MY FAMILY BECOME SO NOISY EVERYDAY!I HATE U!!!!!!!!!

when weimin says that she hate a person,she really hates that person.i always act as if its nth and i don care but i CARE!that idiot...............fuming now:( :( :(

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 10:09 PM

hate today's bball training.the male coach hor,tell us to do push ups for missing the goal,dropping the ball etc.i guess we did more than a 1000 pushups.that was in the beginning then when almost going to end,he made lighter punishment.then 1 of our sec 3 senior,tracy,kept shouting at us juniors.THINK WAD!WE WANT TO MISS OR DROP BALL MEH!U SAY WE ALL NVR LIFT UP OUR KNEES DURING PUSH UPS U ASO WAD SOMETIMES!then she call us bimbos.but goin to end she seems much better and doesnt really like hav a bearing grudges face.erm...then the capital letter words are jus my angry words.so...as u seee...i am lame so ,sorry Tracy.wah sai then today i am the only one wearin blue coz i hav no red or green shhirts.so odd!!!!!!ayah then very lazy to type already lor.great news is that my cousin is discharged:)so,bye for now:)

p.s.i called my bro asshole today for no reason

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 1:50 PM

Sunday, June 1, 2008

now in cousins house.came back from snow city and science center.the snow city hor,tell u all ar,is like sooooo Borin lor.though the temperature is kind of toooo cold for me which ....yep i kind of like the feeling and moments of the coldness and smoke coming out of my mouth.cool:)the sci centre was okay lah coz jus wen there a few weeks ago.go0tta teach my cousin how to create a blog now.byez...

(radioactive mantou) ♥ 3:40 PM